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This excerpt that depicts my journey into love, became the very special workbook called Heal Your Heart: A Journey to Find Your SoulMate.

I grew up terrified of love and all it stood for. Whenever anyone came remotely close to me, or even headed in that direction, I ran faster than possible. I could and would not allow myself to face what love represented to me, although my mind and heart longed for it. I had taken on the beliefs that I was not lovable, that people would only be pretending and showing kindness by befriending me, that I didn’t deserve love in my life, that there was nothing here, in me, for anyone to love. All I was, was me. I felt of no value to anything or anyone in this world. There was no reason for my being.

Needless to say, as I progressed with my personal healing journey, love was seen as a topic that had to be resolved.

Perhaps because the issue of love is what makes us feel good about ourselves, and without that belief, we have nothing to build lives on. We need to believe we deserve to live, that we have a place in this world, that there is a reason for our existing and that we are special. We need to believe that we belong.

Working on and through my love issues became an aspect of my life for more than a year. As I would work on various areas, things kept coming back to love. It seemed to be the base of everything, much to my confusion.

So I let it continue in its own time and method. I had no specific plan of where it was heading, actually I had no idea what the outcome would be, only that I would remain determined to listen to all feelings when they surfaced and do their work. I wanted to be free of this fear of love.

I suppose I gradually changed, I know other people noticed a difference in me. I stopped being so focused on the sadness of not having love in my life, and became more settled and calm within myself. I became stronger in my belief of myself, and my place in the world. All the work I have undertaken affected love issues. That is the way of it because Love was my main life topic.

The following chapters lead you through the same journey I took to discover love. They are grouped rather than having a strict order.

As we progress with emotional clearing work, learning what love feels like and spending time enjoying that feeling naturally occurs, simultaneously. It is a nice balance.

Understanding Love

Firstly, I began by pondering love in depth, something not consciously done before. It was interesting to listen to all the beliefs of what love is and should be surface. I then began to understand where I was coming from, a place to commence this journey. Where do you begin?

Once this clear understanding had been formed, I could see love was not the specific topic, but rather working through all the issues preventing it was, so the pressure was off and I was able to relax. I did not know what love was, so I let it go of having to find it for the time being, confident that I would discover its meaning as I progressed.

In doing so I enjoyed the experience of learning about love energy, and inline with the feeling chapter, incorporated happy experiences in my daily life.

Healing

Next I faced all my fears of love, the beliefs I had taken on from events with family, romantic relationships and unpleasant experiences. I searched them all out deliberately, clearing one by one.

As I worked through my releasing and healing issues, I found a sense of calm and peace began to form within me, little by little. My fears were reducing and the number of happier experiences increased.

Then one day, I was surprised to feel good about living.

With each step, I gained a greater awareness and understanding of myself and the world, and what this thing we call love isn’t. It is most definitely not what we have believed. I spent a great deal of time pulling all the pieces of this new knowledge together to discover my own new beliefs, as it affected each area of my personal work.

Feeling Love

I let myself feel it all, the happiness and sadness, the love and loss. It was a very special time to become this experience. I welcomed and enjoyed discovering my range of emotions and feelings. I wrote constantly of the feelings as they poured from my mind. I let the words flow without thought, allowing them to tell me the story of love.

The more I allowed myself to become a part of this experience, the more I grew.

The Change

One day, I had an experience where I realized that I was ready and open to invite love into my life. I had healed all my issues blocking it. That is when the magic began as you will also experience.

Love is an energy, to be felt and experienced. An energy to smile at and enjoy feeling. It fills my being with warmth and makes my heart pound. It is a most beautiful state of mind.

When we discover this state of mind, the world becomes a new magical place. All we interact with seem to change and come to us to share love and kindness. All that we experience makes us smile from within. Each moment that we become part of a now experience, increases our ability to feel everything more deeply, which serves to strengthen this love energy. We move from the perception of coming from or basing everything on past fears, thoughts and experiences, to delighting in our future ones.

We literally float and feel and experience our future joys, in the same manner we did with our past sadness. We find what we wish to be and do with our lives, what makes us smile from the inside out.

We spend our time creating and participating in our future movies, yet to become. And, we feel and spend wondrous energy times with our soul mate of choice, preparing for this to materialize and complete the picture.

Coming Together

What occurred during this section was most unexpected. It is a transition time which marked the end of working alone within my safe cocoon, to coming together with dear soul friends who helped me learn how to bring all that I have learned into the outside world with real people. Their love and care was so strong that it gave me the strength and courage to face my biggest fears and anxieties of relating to the opposite sex.

Living Love

I share the following with you, as it was shared with me during a time when I was questioning love and all it stood for. It gave me great hope. A beautiful email from my teacher, Julian.

Love has always been the answer

hello J,

Love will save you. Love will show you again how special you are. Love will be your proof, that the body you created is unique, and desirable. That emotions are valid, and can be experienced towards joy, and fulfillment.

Love is the key. But it must be shown, in human terms. It must come from another, like you. It must be uplifting, encouraging, caring, and nurturing. It must stand back, and watch you grow, without limit, or boundary, and must share in all your special things.

Love can take you high above the clouds, can muddy the saddened hours. It will fill the loneliness, and build your character. Talk about spiritual living on earth, it is in love that you see Life, it is love that transcends all else.

Your questions often have no answers. Because most human questions have no foundation in reality. Love will place you back where you want to be. Love will present earth as heaven, and in love you will find all the answers.

It can be love of self, so strong as to stand alone, and love all else at the same time. Or it can be the love of another. You can learn to love together.
That love is here on earth, with its golden rays, its warmth, and fullness. Its touch, and sensations. The way you feel, humbled in its presence.

Pray for that love then, and give intent for as long as your earth years, that you will find your golden sun. You deserve it, and so it shall be. And start right away to give love from your heart, in little ways here and there. To whomever you wish. In love, the trials of earth fade, for anything can be done. It is from Spirit, and it is love, love is all there is.

Find yours, and have patience. A lifetime of patience. Even ONE MOMENT of true love, at ones last breathe, makes it all worthwhile. And in that moment, the lesson is learned.

It could be 100 loves, or 1 love. It could last 100 years or 1 month. It is not the duration, but the quality.

Open yourself to love, that is your stumbling block. And you will be filled, I promise you.

Written with Love, J.

My New Life

As soon as I completed Heal Your Heart: A Journey to Find Your SoulMate, I did just that.

I met and married my dear sweet Buddy SoulMate who I had been feeling and connecting with all these months. It felt like I had come home.

The love and life we share is beautiful. Sharing the journey of life with a best friend and buddy is so much fun. It does not matter what we do, as we are together – as one.

We have been together 7 years now, and the love and connection we share continues to grow and evolve.

I traveled half way across the world, and healed my heart, and found true love.

How Perfect.

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